Motherhood was one step I was scared to step in and together we were apprehensive, life was at its best with our DINK status and was not sure how equip we would be in the world of nappy changing.
The news came at a time when I was really heartbroken and shaken with my Mum’s life threaten disease, we were all trying to fight with CANCER, which had hit her suddenly and discovered at the last stage. The news did bring in a lot apprehension but yes, a faint of joy in everyone’s life, news of a new life, news of hope, all of us including ma started looking forward to life once again.
However, as luck has it and as GOD wished, ma could not wait for 14 days more to see her first grandchild and I lost my mom! the most precious person of my life just when I became a mother.
I do not know if reincarnation exit or not, but all elders say that because ‘ma” wanted to come back to me in the form of my daughter that she went in hurry. Our little angle is only eight months and I do not know if she has any traits of my mother, and even if she has it probably have something to do with her genes. But deep down in my heart it gives me some kind of relief when I look at my angle’s face and can feel the love I have for her and for my ma simultaneously.
With my little one, I have learnt what motherhood is and how a ma feels for her princess. I always knew ma loved both my sis and me the most, but now I know and understand that care when we were sick, that anxiousness when we were late at home, that worrisome face when we skipped our meals. Today the thought which crosses my mind ……………..only if I have could have thanked her for all love and sacrifice earlier, thanked her for whatever she did for me. I wish ma you were there today, and I could share my motherhood with you. I miss you Ma every day, every moment of my life. From wherever you are please, bless me that I can become as great a mother like you and can teach her all the good things that you have taught me once.
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